Way back when..... when this blog had just started.......one of my very favorite thing to post about was my love for this big,old,falling down 1902 home. When we bought this house in 2001 I was so very proud of it. We were 23, most of our friends still had apartments. Some even still lived with their parents but here we were with a real grown up house.
It had only been 5 years before that I was still deciding how to hang up a Rocky Horror poster in my bedroom and now here I was picking out paint swatches,trying to figure out how to get rid of the ugly wallpaper in the bathroom and decorate the nursery as Noah was on his way. The first room we painted was the dining room in Cranberry Zing. I was excited to use a daring color and just to have my very own dining room. A room for dining. As I sit in that very room right now I can tell you not much dining happens in here. Crafts happen,coloring happens. Sometimes homework. Mail piles up in here. Lots of mail. Sometimes I fold laundry in here but dining.......no, not really.
|Cranberry Zing.....I'm so over you.|
So anyways, I guess what I'm getting at is that I miss loving my house. I miss the passion I had for decorating and making it a home. A unique living space just for us. It's a mixture of lacking things: time,energy and I guess even money although I can really do a lot with a little. These days I'm lucky to be feeling well enough to pick up after Stella and vacuum up Cheerio's.
So I have this plan in my head to LOVE my house again. I'm not going to spend any money on craft stuff or other junk that I think I have to have. I want it to go into the house. We've talked about moving.. But we know it's not a realistic dream anytime soon. We raised our kids in this tiny community and they are completely rooted. So I just need to have the best place possible so these babies can bloom where they have been planted.
I'm not sure what I can do in here. There is a lot of painting that needs done and we desperately need new living room furniture. This stuff is only 5 years old and looks horrible. I solemnly vow to never buy microfiber ever again. Because right now stains made by water are being covered with quilts and such. It's kind of funky and not the kind of eclectic funky I like. More like white trash funky.
I also have to say goodbye to Cranberry Zing. It's dark and sometimes cozy but our house doesn't exactly get a lot of sunshine and I need to brighten things up around here. Speaking of brightening I want to add windows to the living room flanking the fireplace. I'm hoping this is doable. Let there be light! Then again all the existing windows already need replaced. I can't really open any of them without breaking a nail or having them slam back down on me.
I said this house was falling down. I meant it.
I want to love this place again.....to want to want to be here....to feel like being hospitable again.....to not go to someones house for the first time and think 'Oh, no way are they ever seeing my place.'
So now I'm sure some people may read this and think 'Wow, she is so ungrateful! God has blessed her with a nice family and a roof over her head. Tisk,tisk.' and I suppose some of that may be true. I'm only human. I realize that I've been blessed with a home and family but I want to make it better. To make the most of what God has given me and make it BETTER for my husband and kids.