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35 Y/O wife to Tim and mom to Emma,Noah,Caleb, Stella and 2 babies in Heaven.Trying to walk in the path of the Lord and carrying my family with me. I love our 1902 home we purchased more 10 years ago. It is constantly evolving and goes through whatever changes my little heart desires. I love vintage treasures and I'm always on the hunt for them! My hope is that this blog will be a constant scrapbook for my family and home,a place to make new friends and just somewhere to lay out my thoughts,even if they aren't beautiful or inspiring. XoXo-Nikki

Wednesday, October 24, 2012

In which I make an ass of myself.

Can I whine a bit? Of course I can. This is my little space.Actually I'm not going to whine as much as I plan on just being hard on myself.Call myself out. Ugh.

I've really,really taken on too much lately.Which is not good.In taking on too much I can not give my all to some things. So I fail. And I'm embarrassed. I have a hard time saying no. I'm afraid to disappoint.But I'm still managing to disappoint because I commit and don't follow through.

Sometimes I commit and just plain forget that I did. I found that out tonight. (After a very long,rough day) and now I just want to crawl under a rock.

I see myself losing some friendships lately.I feel sad. I wonder why I'm not 'good enough' anymore but I know that's not it. People just grow apart and I'm guilty of no longer cultivating said friendship on my part anymore either..

2 Birthdays down....2 to go. Then Christmas then 'REST' and a 2013 resolution to slow things down and simplify.
Change is in the air. For the good or for the bad is up to me

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