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35 Y/O wife to Tim and mom to Emma,Noah,Caleb, Stella and 2 babies in Heaven.Trying to walk in the path of the Lord and carrying my family with me. I love our 1902 home we purchased more 10 years ago. It is constantly evolving and goes through whatever changes my little heart desires. I love vintage treasures and I'm always on the hunt for them! My hope is that this blog will be a constant scrapbook for my family and home,a place to make new friends and just somewhere to lay out my thoughts,even if they aren't beautiful or inspiring. XoXo-Nikki

Tuesday, July 31, 2012

Time to reevaluate............

Ugh....Summer. Always starts off so fun but once again I'm longing for fall and it's habitual routines. Lately I'm spending my time begging my kids to pick up after themselves and to stop fighting.

It also seems like lately I'm letting little things get to me and things that are supposed to be fun just stress me out. I really,really need to relax about these things or rethink why I am doing them. But then I get so caught up I start lose sight of how important my family is to me. Friends too. I'm afraid I may have lost a dear friend because I got so caught up....forgot to relax and snapped.

I think it also has to do with competition. I don't think I ever realized how competitive I could be until lately.

So then in my frustration I think I want to quit.....should I let one bad moment make me want to quit? Or should I assess why I'm doing it in the first place.

I guess I'm being vague here. I'm talking about 2 things that are dear to me: My Jamberry business and Relay for Life.

With both things I need to go back to why I decided to start in the first place. I also think I need to remember that in both I am part of a TEAM. I was never on any teams growing up so maybe I really have no clue on how to be a team player?
I think a lot of what I heard in church on Sunday is resonating with me as well. Why try to build up a name? It doesn't go with us. Why to try to store stuff here? We need to build up our heavenly treasures. I did not leave feeling guilty but I did leave feeling somewhat convicted.I think I totally needed that.

Yep. Totally.

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All that aside (feels good to get it out!) Here's some of the good stuff:
Stella and I have a very fun routine in the mornings. When I get her out of her crib I change her and then we read a story.  We also play with her tea set. All that fun stuff I missed about having a little girl is happening
again.Love it. She also adores her biggest brother. Whoa-wa. *melting*

I'm turning 34 in a few weeks. I'm ok with this. As long I get to celebrate.Preferably with sushi,hard cider and a Pirate game.

Also if you see a pack of Root Beer Float gum at the check out at Target. Get it. So delish!

When Amy posts today, I will link up there. 

1 comment:

Jo Ann said...

No friendship is over, unless you want it to be. You are re-evaluating things right now. Just send them a message/note and let them know how you are feeling and what is going on with you. You will make it through this.