Life with Stella has been wonderful. She is 2 months old already! She is a joy in our life. A bright spot in a very dark time in my life........
I have never typed this.....in fact the first time I said it out loud I couldn't believe I was saying it but here it is: My sister passed away. Ugh. Just reading it is so weird. It happened the day after Thanksgiving. She was 26. She was hilarious.She overcame battles in her life.She loved the Wizard of Oz.She has 2 wonderful kids.We hadn't talked in months.I never had regrets in my life until now.I have never hurt like this and I have never loved and appreciated my family more.
It doesn't help that Christmas is days away. It doesn't help that we are having below average temperatures and that it's dark by 5pm. But I think the thing I really hate the most out of all of this is the pain and sadness that my parents are experiencing. I seriously feel like I can feel my heart breaking into pieces when I see my Daddy break down or when my Mum tells me that she just can't shake this sadness. How does a family get through this? Will this break us or make us stronger?What is Christmas going to be like next weekend?
My husband has been amazing and totally there for me.And my friends! Wow, if I didn't know people loved us before I know it now.
I think about it all the time. Even if I'm doing something else it's like it's always there. It hits me all over again when I wake up in the morning. I feel weird doing normal every day things with the knowledge that she is not here to do those things.
What I do know is that my sister had faith in Jesus Christ. I take comfort knowing she is in Heaven.
She was beautiful........