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35 Y/O wife to Tim and mom to Emma,Noah,Caleb, Stella and 2 babies in Heaven.Trying to walk in the path of the Lord and carrying my family with me. I love our 1902 home we purchased more 10 years ago. It is constantly evolving and goes through whatever changes my little heart desires. I love vintage treasures and I'm always on the hunt for them! My hope is that this blog will be a constant scrapbook for my family and home,a place to make new friends and just somewhere to lay out my thoughts,even if they aren't beautiful or inspiring. XoXo-Nikki

Friday, August 27, 2010

What a difference a year makes.

One year ago right now I was sitting in a room in a hospital. I had just went through probably the most traumatic thing I had ever seen. 2 days before my 31st birthday I had my second miscarriage. I won't rehash it but lets just say it was down right horrific. I will never forget that moment as long as I'm here on Earth. I will never forget learning that our baby was a boy.

I could have never gotten through all this with out friends,family and God.

Fast forward to today. One year later. I have a splitting headache,heartburn like crazy and a very much loved little girl who's head is jammed in my ribs. We scheduled our c-section today and went from appointments every 4 weeks to appointments every 2 weeks.

Less than 7 weeks till this long road is over and I get to snuggle my sweet Stella. I am going to kiss every finger and every toe. I am going to whisper in her ear how much Mama,Daddy and Jesus love her. I am going to gaze into her tiny eyes with wonder and love. I am going to remind myself that this is the last time I will ever going to have a newborn baby and to cherish every second of it.

This time is very bitter sweet. But I'm ok with being done making babies. I just want to get on with life as a family of 6 like we dreamed of.

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