4:30 am here. A sign of things to come? I woke up and couldn't get back to sleep when I realized she was being a bit quiet. So I just had a big glass of tea cooler (half tea,half lemonade) and she is kicking up a storm now.(Let me just mention how I long to kiss those little toes jamming into my hip!!) My anxiety is getting the better of me.
It's been 2 years now since we started trying to have baby #4. What a long road it has been. Less than 3 months now and I won't lie. I hope it goes fast. I know I will never be pregnant again after Stella is born and that does make me feel a little sad. But the naivete and a good portion of the joy that comes a long with being pregnant has been taken from me. I so looked forward to being pregnant because I loved the way it made me feel-excited,beautiful and healthy like my body was doing whats expected of it. Now it makes me frightened and nervous. I wish she would kick every second of the day. As if to say 'Mama, I'm here. Everything is ok and I know you will be snuggling with me soon.'
We are in the thick of Summer. I have to say, I'm not a fan. Never really have been. I'm looking forward to Fall. Cool breezes and crunchy leaves underfoot. Chili on the stove and cornbread in the oven. Wearing sweaters,costumes and Black & Gold of course!! All of my babies are fall babies. I want this one to come more than ever!
- Nikki @ Saving For A Rainy Day
- Pittsburgh, United States
- 35 Y/O wife to Tim and mom to Emma,Noah,Caleb, Stella and 2 babies in Heaven.Trying to walk in the path of the Lord and carrying my family with me. I love our 1902 home we purchased more 10 years ago. It is constantly evolving and goes through whatever changes my little heart desires. I love vintage treasures and I'm always on the hunt for them! My hope is that this blog will be a constant scrapbook for my family and home,a place to make new friends and just somewhere to lay out my thoughts,even if they aren't beautiful or inspiring. XoXo-Nikki