Why me?

I feel like lately there are more bad days than good days. I'm praying life will get better.
Lots of little bad things can add up to feel like one big, bad thing.

I'm trying to not feel sorry for myself.

And focus on the good.

On the last day of March.

 Easter Sunday.
Last day of March.
This past week has not been my favorite.
I have a friend who is hurting pretty bad. The weird thing is I prayed to God that I can feel compassion for others. I think I lack it. Like a lot. So anyways not 10 minutes later (I was at church) someone dear to me to me tells something pretty crappy and I was a little taken aback myself at how much I hurt for them. I shared this with another friend and she told me to watch out because prayer is so powerful and people do not realize that. So that had me thinking about some other people I care about. They don't know Jesus. Some don't believe. Some are bothered by religion. (I get that. I really do. But that's another story.....) Some just don't care. So I felt compelled to look up this prayer and I wanted to share it.........

Prayer for the Unbeliever

I wonder if someone prayed this for me?
If you did then Thank You.

 

Keep on trying......

 Getting a little frustrated but I'm determined!! Off to pick up my boys on this cold and windy first day of Spring. (Did you know it was 80* here on this day last year?? Crazy!)

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I got a big ol' hole in my face!!!

Not sure if I mentioned a few weeks back or not but I found a lump in my face. I had a cold at the time and assumed it was a swollen lymph node. My dr thought it was a swollen saliva gland and sent me to an ENT specialist.He looked at me for maybe 30 seconds and said it was a swollen lymph node.
A few weeks later it hurt again and it was then Dx as a cyst. A cyst that kept getting infected. Anyways I had it removed last week by a plastic surgeon. He also found a 'lesion' below my ear that he removed.

Stella waiting with me to go back. I think she looks a bit like my mom here.

Picnic socks pre-op.

    So when I went in for this procedure I was a little taken aback that I had to strip down to my underoos for something on my face. I was not prepared. I didn't shave and I had some funky socks on. Thankfully I had on normal,plain white underwear. Not my Hello Kitty ones or anything crazy like that 0_o.

So now I have this hole in my face. With stitches.(being taken out this Friday) The stitches look like creepy hairs. I've been wearing a lot of scarves............

Friday night was another dance fundraiser for Emma's youth group trip. I decided not to help because I felt weird looking like I got in a knife(cauterizing tool?) fight at a bar or something. But then I went up for the last hour anyways to sit and hang out with some other other moms from church.

Jill and another friend of ours decided to take our girls to Silver Ring Thing at our old church.......

Emma girl looking GORGEOUS as ever! (taken at the dance)

I'm not sure of the impact it made on her. We did not purchase a ring. She had said before that she doesn't need a ring to know whats right. Tim said if she's willing to make that commitment then he will buy her a 'good' ring.

It felt a little weird being back at our old church.In a good way. I don't miss it at all now. I sooo love BCC. I can't imagine going to any other church with any other group of people now. I was put in charge of the egg hunt on Friday night as part of our Family night and I'm pretty excited about that.

Off to enjoy green tea shakes with Em. Have a good week.
Love,Frankenstein

Delicious in the middle.

Today started out horrible. Running late.....a recipe I'm usually good at didn't work out. I felt rushed. I felt defeated.

Then church started. All was forgotten. We heard a great sermon reminding us that we as a church are a family and get to have a reunion every Sunday. Everyone in the pews loved that.

The sun was shining. The temps reached 70*. We took a walk and spent a few hours at the park since we had no plans. It was lovely.

Now the day is ending and I feel the same way I did in the am. Well kinda.

                  My feelings are hurt.

 I thought being 'unfollowed' on Instagram by someone I thought was cool made me feel kinda bad but being forgotten,uninvited or whatever by people you love sucks a million times more.

and then some.

giving up the right things.

    Ok so giving up facebook has been pretty easy. I didn't think it would be but life is ok without it! I'm about to give up something else that is going to be really hard but I'll try- bread {cookies,noodles,donuts etc...)! Now I'm not going totally Paleo here (Mama ain't giving up that glass of wine when the kids go to bed!) but I can't keep saying I have baby fat going back 13 years whilst eating hoagies and brownies. What will make this hard will be my family. They like things breaded,on bread,with bread crumbs etc....

I do vow to drink more water and green tea though. Love my matcha powder!

In other 'Nikki's health sucks' news I have a date with a plastic surgeon a week from today to have this thing in my face removed. While he was poking around he found something else and is taking that out too. Oh,joy.

Tim made sushi the other night. Can't we just have that for dinner every day? I would be ever so happy!

Last night we had our monthly dinner/worship  with our church family.I look forward to it every week and I try to help as much as I can. I love being a part of things there and only regret that we didn't go sooner. Anyways (usually) every month someone gives their testimony.Last nights was wonderful! Jennifer was so inspirational.She made us cry (and laugh!). I'm not sure how eloquently I can put her story into words like she did but you can see her in this documentary titled 'Only God Can Hear Me'. {On an interesting side note when I started churching it at BCC I thought she was familiar to me then it hit me that her family resides a few blocks away from where Gram lived (really our whole family's house in a sense.) and I remember trick or treating at their house!}
 On another 'church' note, I'm accompanying Emma and her youth group to Indianapolis for a youth conference next month. I'm so excited. Plus Jill is going. Woot Woot!! (She yells that every time we do something fun together. I love it.Its a sign good times are ahead!)

I just noticed that I love parentheses.(No,really! I do.)

Week in photos.......

$1 bouquet

Hers and His bobatea

50 cents for an 83 year old cookbook complete with handwritten notes and old clippings

Introduced my mama to the yumminess that is Jean Marc's!

vintage towels and afghan. Rummage house is open for the season! A sure fire sign of spring.

Em and Mom out to breakfast

Lavender cupcakes I made for GNO with the ladies from church

Just a handful of the girls!

Date night.

Screen printing at the childrens museum.

Smarty pants reader boy.

Love. This. Face.